One month passed, dad how r u there? Miss u.
Today also covid mco day 10. Stay home plan from 14 days extend another two weeks to 14th April 😭.
It’s quite boring, every whr also close, can’t go out.
Only can go out buy groceries and also food.
Cannot eat outside, and every shop also closed at 7pm.
Recently at home, we always baking, as nothing can do.
So far, we have bake a lot of foods
- 白糖糕
- 喜板
- 香兰燕菜
- 香蕉糕
- 馒头
- 黑斑牛油蛋糕
- 萝卜糕
- 豆花燕菜
- orange chiffon
- chocolate moist cake

I am back after few years ..so Long never write blog dy.

Well, I wish to write a blog about my dad.

Daddy, I miss you!

I lost my dad on 27 February 2020 :( 

I dint manage to c him 最后一面

His death is so sudden, thought he is recovering, but he suddenly got internal bleeding and passed away.

I can’t really forgive myself as I dint rush back to see him. 

Seriously I don’t knw his situation is so dangerous 😭

Can u imagine, he just admitted to hospital the night before and

On the next day he do scoping at morning and passed away at night 😭

I shall not going back sg so soon on early February or else I can acc him a while more.

For the past five months, I had been taking care of my dad all the while.

Sometime, I am quite pissed with him. It’s really not easy to take care a cancer patient.

He tend to be quite emo sometime.

Especially when he couldn’t sleep 😭, will scold us.

I wish to jot down what is happening on this few months.

Well, I have my rom on 30 August 2019 at Singapore.

Before this, since July 2019 I have quit my job as auditor, and I went back hometown and will be going back to Singapore with my parents to attend the rom.

On 27 August 2019, I bring my parents travel to sg, yeah this time got direct flight with scoot.

Oh ya, this time my dad enter Singapore as Malaysian. He is happy to back to his hometown.

When pass the custom, we are quite worry dad will be on hold by them. Luckily, he passed.

First few days, dad still can go out with us happily.

We still bring him to go sea aquarium as well.

However, he started feeling not well on that night, we spotted his faeces got blood 😭

We are shocked and then dad can’t really laying down properly, can’t walk properly, no energy

What happened to him! We are so worried about him but he refused to go hospital! 

On my rom that day, he choose to stay outside and not going in to see my registration process.

I’m quite sad but he is suffering 😭

Is it I shouldn’t registered at Singapore, if I am not having rom at there, may be he won’t sick? 

After few days, I changed my plan and have to go back hometown with parents as my dad is very weak and may need someone to follow. 

After home, dad is still weak and couldn’t sleep at night 

We bring him to c doctor foo at first and doctor use ultrasound to c and suspect my dad got cancer, he quickly recommend us to go hospital usm and do ct scan.

For the next two days, we went there, but the ppl ask dad to Puasa and q to c if able to do ct scan. Wait, wait and wait.. how Long u all Wan dad to fasting, after that we bring dad back.

On that night, my aunt come to visit us, she ask us to bring dad to kl immediately on tomorrow morning. Why? Why we never think to go kl immediately, dad had been suffering for few days.

The next day, I went to kl with my parents , and my bro join us later as he want to get the referral letter from the clinic doc. We went Sjmc for the first time. Doctor was diagnose with stage 4 cholangiocarcinoma cancer. All of us cry badly, and doctor say dad may have only 6months life span 😭. At first, they thought it is liver cancer as his liver there have the big tumour, but after they do biopsy, and pet ct scan, they found out dad having cholangiocarcinoma cancer, actually this cancer is quite advance and which is not common in Asia, the possibility of staying alive is quite Low. 

After that, the doctor say the only way dad can do is only going through chemotherapy which may help to minimise the tumour size, and dad may not feeling so suffer. And this kind of cancer can’t do any operation, only chemotherapy may help, but the chances is only 30%.

Afterwards, we trying very hard to persuade dad to do the chemotherapy, and finally he agreed to do. 

We knew that chemotherapy got many side effects, but this is the only way for him to stay even longer, or else dad may leave us after one month or lesser, as his cancer is so advance, the tumour size is about 10cm and above. Well, dad did his first chemotherapy at Sjmc. 

After one cycle of chemotherapy, he feel suffer, got constipation, vomit and others. He told us he want to quit already, and the doctor also follow dad decision. 

After back to hometown, we trying hard to persuade dad to continue the chemotherapy. While my brother went to another hospital, beacon hospital to seek for second opinion. Based on the current situation, the doctor also mention dad shouldn’t give up and should continue go for chemotherapy which is the only chances for him to live longer. Well, this round we went down to kl, we told dad that we go for another hospital to ask, see if he want to continue, the doctor keep explaining to dad and encourage him to do chemotherapy. Finally dad agree to do it. 

But I doubt the doctor expertise, as whenever my dad say any parts of his body is uncomfortable, he will ask us to do scanning all those. At first, my dad mention his stomach not feeling well, he suggest to do ultrasound, mention may have water in the stomach, but my dad’s leg and hand is not bloated, how can it be got water inside, which we have also just did the draining one month before.

However, good things is that he can encourage my dad to continue chemotherapy, that’s why we proceed to do there.

We had been travelled to kl quite frequent as my dad undergo chemotherapy there. One cycle of chemo is splitted into two times of injections. He need go for second injection after one week. And he may rest for third week. So usually we went back to hometown after two days of second injection. 

During that period, dad always having fever after his chemotherapy, we are so worry all the while. Sometime we are not sure if it’s infection or is it normal (the side effect of the chemo). 

The fever also result in delay of the chemotherapy. So dad delay his treatment after second and third injection. 

It is not ease to go kl also as we don’t have accommodation and transport there. We need to book Airbnb, flight ticket whenever travel to there. And every time experience different Airbnb. Well, it is not ease for my parents as they are quite old dy, hardly accommodate them easily 😭 quite pity them sometime. I still remember we did book a Airbnb which is quite small, it’s a one bedroom type which the owner changed the living room become bedroom as well, so angry of him.

Dad can’t really sleep during that period, keep switch bed with me, this screen is still appearing on my mind as at now. Within one week, we decide to change another bigger Airbnb, we can’t forgt the small house which 400 square feet which need fit 4 of us. How can it be? Somemore there is cancer patient and Everyday we saw ant crawling on our food..yucks! 

I’m lucky that my dad can still attend my wedding on 8th and 30th November 2019. 

Its great that dad can attend both day wedding. After my wedding on 30th nov, dad having fever again, and been hospitalised at beacon. After few days, he is discharged and back hometown together with me and my mum. But unluckily, he can’t fall aslp again when back to home, my sister quickly bring him back to beacon again. This round he had been hospitalised for around one week plus. Doctor recheck everything, do pet ct scan, ultrasound, X-ray, ecg, mri scan. Everything looks no big issue, but dad still can’t fall asleep well 😫 the pet ct scan result turn out good, dad tumour size is getting smaller, which means the chemotherapy is effective! We are so happy with the results and ask dad not to worry. For the first few days after the hospitalisation, he can sleep a little bit well dy. But it happen again after that, he can’t slp and keep ask us for sleeping pill, after that we bring him to go seek for 神经科医生. Doctor also mention it may b relate to mental problem if dad still can’t sleep. So I bring dad to go visit the mental doctor and he keep mention 人很烦，很多东西烦 and advise dad must fight the virus. Afterwards, dad eat his pill and back to normal.

Afterwards January and February, my dad started can sleep already at night. Won’t wake up at the midnight so frequent as usual. We also happy as he is recovering. But unfortunately, he leave us so soon. However, he left us with no pain. Just that two days. Before this, he is healthy as he dy stop chemotherapy since mid nov 2019. We did persuade him to continue to do chemotherapy, however he always refuse to do. And the corono virus in 2019 also result us not dare to bring him travel to kl and continue the treatment. 人算不如天算，dad is not passed away because of the virus, but because of the sudden internal bleeding esophageal varices which also relate to his cancer. 

This internal bleeding had been suspected since he enter Sjmc, luckily it is not happened that time, we have another 6 months to accompany him. 

raya holiday

engine is started
went to penang again for raya holiday
same as laz year
oh oh wrong timing
raya going
thr full of ppl
miss a lot of food thr
too many ppl :'(

1st day went to sungai petani at night
went to a restaurant
the environment is nice
it is a wooden hs full of decoration

here it is

v had try a lot of food..dim sum, fish head bihun, yam rice, food at apollo pasar in butterworth and others

unluckily thr is also some food nt able to eat such as cendol, fried kuew tiao and hawker food near gurney plaza :(

during the trip...gt thk went to ipoh
but couldnt make it..worry jam

 enjoying my penang trip vry much

wish nex year stil can join family went for travelling for raya
mum aim go to singapore
hope it is truth XD

my holiday

 

sis is coming home

from 5th aug for a week

so happy

every morning went for breakfaz

a lot of nice food in my stomach dy!!

now puasa..gt a lot of food to buy
Akok...i had eat it til boring dy yo..
sis thm keep buy it
tis is buy from a shop..other place cant compare yo
ketupat is given by ex-neighbour..so good eh
she stil come find us to gv us the ketupat..
murtabak leh need to queue long to buy it
haven open stall..gt ppl queue dy

 

a series of cute pic

dun look down on me yo...

xuan is quite clever ..

she like to do hschore haha! 

 sometime she is so funny..

many many funny act

but she recognise her mum

keep wan bside her mum

wil keep crying bcoz wan to find her mum

sweet memories wif thm
i am waitign for friday
going to penang
however me wish to travel to other place la XD

end of my internship

finally
internship come to the end
i have complete 6 months practical
thanks to those senior and junior in Crowe Horwath
thy have guide me and teach me lot during 6 mths time
i have gain knowledge from them and
glad to knw all of them

The ship

Happy birthday bb
This year is the 2nd time me celebrate his birth wif him HEHE
Nice
Have a nice dinner
me insist wan go KL to have a walk n also dinner
but it is so jam...even go a place consume a lot of time
Unforgetable birthday
hope he wunt forget also la
gt special birthdy present...sshh...secret haha!
beside tat,,,got buy a mickey mouse shirt for him
haha!..
it is nt a couple shirt..but mickey shirt from giordano

me gt bought one too
nex tim gt chance i wan wear it!!!

went to the ship -jalan sultan ismail nearer to pavillion thr to have dinner
nice!
He like to eat steak...so me sugggest this place to try try
He really like it..yeah
:-*

At first, they served us wif bread

Next

a bowl of salad!

Next...come to wat v ordered!!

We order this

Appetizer


This- apple and shrimps coctail...it is nice!! the fresh prawn wif the mayonise..yummy!


Soup of the day

DIng DOng
ccome to the main course

He say quite nice yo the steak...he love it

While me called tenderlon sizzling steak

Why u order this???

perhaps i had do survey la

search for blogspot and get to knw tat most of ppl will call it

Not cheap yo...it cost RM44 one plate..

The picture showwwwwwwww

Zoom in plzzz

It is only some fries wif steak n tomato!

But the steak n fries is nice!!! Sizzling serve hot food

Delicious!

Nex come to our dessert

ice cream cake

yeah...this is good...advance birthday cake..aha

U all may go to try this restaurant ya

It is expensive but should try once..haha

After dinner..went to pavillion thr have a walk

eat till too full dy

 Enjoyable day .........................................miss it

delicious food

 This is Carl Jr
Stil remember who bring me to eat for the first time
She is my best fren la..hehe
Know who?? haha
I love this burger..esp the fries...yummy!
It is a bit expensive compare to others
price double of MCD 
But overall i thk is ok
since the burger is big, refillable drinks, and yummy fries
can eat til full full

Another dessert i love

sure is Snow Flake la
this is another best fren intro me
haha XD
I love to eat the taroball and also simple sweet potato

Another food wan to intro u all is
Nasi Lemak
who love to eat may try yo
Nasi Lemak at Bumbung...near to Sea Park /SS2

This food intro by my love la
He love to eat it so much
always wan add sambal
It costs only RM4.50
It is cheap but dun eat too much yo
Nasi lemak oily haha
but i always wan to eat too..sometime even b my supper!

Subway

Let me introduce u all this super nice breakfaz la
it cost only RM6.30 for breakfaz
super great... from 7am til 11am
even weekend also available!!
have chance muz try it
The breakfaz include drink too

3 types of menu u may choose:-
i) chicken slice and egg
ii) tune and egg
iii) cheese and egg

I love tuna and egg    yummy!!

He try chicken slice and egg

Let c
eat like a pig!!!!!!

Ipoh

This is the zha gou xue in Ipoh
Unluckily...I couldnt eat it tat day...stomach not well
so sad...nex time go Ipoh....it is a muz for me to try it!!

Going outstation is good
but me sacrify mickey mouse!!
Now i am able to look at a small small display of mickey mouse..

 Today I get my allowance for outstation
RM500 ...yeah...an extra income ^^
happy and i learn quite lot from the job

dim sum

recently client located at uptown pj
today went for dim sum at jin xuan
went for many times b4 wif someone..

i  am quite bored wif it dy
i have been eat it for 4 times during May and June since went for ipoh
but i still love it
especially the liu sha bao n egg tart
HEHE ^^

currently

well

left 1 mth
opps...is 3 weeks lo
vry vry happy
dunlike work
auditor vry vry busy n tired!!
but as a trainee..i am nt tat tired

quite enjoy during working lah
sometime stress only
enjoy going here n there

6 months intern
i had went to ipoh for outstation job about 2 weeks
gt rm50 allowance
nt tat only..can enjoy eating dim sum n otherrs...happy

most of the clients at pj area...tis make me sad
ride lrt for 45 min early in morning

Learn quite lot from seniors XD

dreaming

dreaming in office ....
who can help me
me rather b a pig at home!!

my family

I miss home!
Yup
whenever i am free and nothing do in office
i will feel i wan home!
yup...tat day i am vry ridiculous
choose to take bus to home
izzit i wan to make u to worry me?
may be

well
recently mum also quite weak and emo
may b her age is getting order and it is the timing  for her to overthk?
always unable to slp well
perhaps i should home more
last last week juz gv parents a big surprise
wake up n saw me haha!
i admit i like such  surprise lah haha
following whn i wil home
Mother day n father da!
thy also haven knw yt...haha!

updated!

long long time din blog dy since i am so free now....lets me describe my internship life la act i don't think i have learn much from here well, ppl say big firm cant learn much Yes! me should realise this long long ago i have make the wrong decision this week actually i am doing the same thing either roll forward or casting quite boring start from the 1st fieldwork i met the strict senior aiks...quite sucks i am really dunno wat i am doing vry stress tatt time even cant really enjoy my valentine the 2nd fieldwork is more ok but i learn the same thing juz more details lah anyway all is based on luck la since i have enter this team-which mostly handle public listed company my schedule: nex 2 job dy til june 31 overall i have juz went for 4 company.

Internship life is quite free..
 Until sometime i am vry rely on him ..who is so busy wiff exam and also homework
Whn can I stop????/

18.10.11

where am i nw....
long din blog dy
erm..i am nw at upm lah
countdown...4 days more then i wil b home again haha
yes..the pass weekend i am at kb
my mum hand injured coz she fall down
tat time nobody is home
1st mum go to private hospital to look at her hand
well...spend thr rm1.8k
but after few days get worse, dunno coz mum keep on move o din fix it properly
at 1st only need 2 weeks time
but nw need 6 weeks time
coz put cement on her hand thr
can i sue the hospital? aiks

her hand need to hang up...thn cant bath herself, cant drive, wat also diff
so, a lot of job for me when home
wake early by mum to hang cloth,wash cup,boil water to cook coffee o milo, da bao 3 meals, keep shirt, fold shirt, clean floor ....
tired!! :'(
yuan lai housewife so tired
if cook somemore, i wil faint dy